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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #220 on: March 04, 2016, 06:16:18 AM »
So, I'm been pretty absent around here of late. Reasons are many but my life has calmed down considerably now and I figured I'd come on and give those of you interested an update.

As some of you may know I've been looking for a job for about the last 8 months, I got really bad about 3 months ago as the last of my savings ran out and I was only able to survive because of gifts that helped me pay rent. But I finaly found a job about 3 weeks ago at the local Arby's. It's a shitty fast food job at the New Mexico minimum wage of $7.50 an hour but because I have been working my but off and learned fast mt managers have been giving me all the extra hours available.
I expected to get between 12-15 hours or less (which would of just barely covered rent and utilities ) but my next pay check with have two weeks of 25+ hours apiece so I'll be able to make the monthly student lone payment and start paying off the debt I've racked up the last few months as well. Things are looking up for now.

starting in June I'm planning to get back into school and get back on track to finish my BS of Computer Science. I've been battling severe procrastination problems the last few years that have utterly trashed my academics and even my attempts to do hobby projects. I've long know WHY I procrastinate but I've never been able to make myself stop and it started me into a spairl compleat with depression. as such I've started to get help form the local mental heath center and their cognitive behavioral therapist. That part of my life is looking up too.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #221 on: March 04, 2016, 06:40:14 AM »
Nice!  Super glad things are starting to get better for you :)

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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #222 on: March 04, 2016, 12:30:24 PM »
Same here. I'm glad things are finally starting to get better for you. :)
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #223 on: March 08, 2016, 06:53:04 PM »
*legal double post* Holy shit, it's out already. xD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hH8h31CJRX8

I start talking at 3:28 and there's a segment with me later as well. I know you won't understand shit, but this is bragging rights. xD
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #224 on: March 09, 2016, 01:42:51 AM »
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #225 on: March 09, 2016, 03:03:39 AM »
*legal double post* Holy shit, it's out already. xD

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hH8h31CJRX8

I start talking at 3:28 and there's a segment with me later as well. I know you won't understand shit, but this is bragging rights. xD

Very cool, you sexy fuck.

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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #226 on: March 09, 2016, 09:37:21 AM »
This sounds like a spam email. xD Maybe that's how they are created.
I agree. That "this channel, it will fail" is the best part.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #227 on: March 11, 2016, 09:11:16 AM »
So, I was taking to my coworker the other-day. and the topic got onto drinking. H mentioned that he and his roommate had played a cellphone drinking game the other day and it was utter chaos because the game gave you chooses like "dance or take seven drinks" It sounded failure so I asked what it's name was. King of booze, he loved it. You have bragging right even in rual as fuck Butt fucking nowhere tiny ass american towns Blizz.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #228 on: March 12, 2016, 12:57:06 AM »
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #229 on: March 14, 2016, 09:46:40 PM »
Depression breeds creation.


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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #230 on: July 22, 2016, 09:33:25 PM »
#Necro

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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #231 on: July 22, 2016, 11:24:04 PM »
Congrats!

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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #232 on: March 08, 2017, 10:30:51 AM »
So... As of Monday I'm officially diagnosed with ADHD combined type, primarily inattentive. It... explains a lot of things. I'm going to be starting medication here in the next week and I'm hoping for an improvement in my general ability to get things done without getting distracted. Honestly, I've suspected it for about a decade but I never wanted it to be true.  Heck, it was diagnosed when I was really young but my parents ignored the diagnoses then because of the "overdiagnoses" of the condition in the late 90's. They always told me that I just needed to work harder at being normal but it wasn't something that needed medical aid. I've gotten damn good at ignoring the symptoms and masking them over the years. explaining it away as "lack of will" and "boredom" but the fact that I'm still struggling to pass my third year of college credits and was fighting depression to just to do the dishes sent me off to find help. A little over a year later I finally have a diagnosis (getting into the mental health clinic around here took about 4 months, the wait list was that long, then we were looking at other potential causes first.). I'm not quite sure what to expect, just hopping is progress instead of more stand still. I also find myself wondering where I'd be if I'd sought help or otherwise been diagnosed sooner. Dr. warned me that would be a thing and that dwelling on it wouldn't be good but I can't really help it yet.

Anyway, I'd like to apologize for being a ghost of late. I missing hanging out with all of you guys here.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #233 on: March 08, 2017, 01:22:47 PM »
Look at the bright side, ADHD is not THAT bad of a thing. And at least now you know what your deal is so you can tackle it head on. :)
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #234 on: March 09, 2017, 11:10:26 PM »
That is certainly one way to look at it. Currently it's more of a, "oh yay, I'm so incompetent I can't even control my own mind!". And yes I realize that's not a health outlook.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #235 on: March 10, 2017, 12:35:33 PM »
Nobody can control their mind. The subconscious literally exists to force you to do shit and avoid doing shit using emotions, ego structures, etc. to make sure you survive and reproduce. Those who have a little bit of more willpower than the rest basically run the world, but not even they are safe. It's a lifelong battle so don't feel bad if you keep losing sometimes.
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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #236 on: March 12, 2017, 07:37:13 PM »
I've known I've had ADHD for years but my dad didn't want to put me on medication. He was diagnosed with it when he was a kid and he didn't like the side effects or the way he felt. When I got old enough I guess, he told me it was my choice if I wanted to try it. I've pretty much coped with it the way you have but I definitely can understand and even compare what you're going through. I dunno if I want to try the medication at all, but an alternative, depending on your morals and your location I suppose, I've tried THC a couple of times in the past year and its helped me calm down and focus when I needed to. Obviously due to legal and situational reasons, you can't always access or use it e.g. during school. When the time comes Ryex and you've been on the medication for a bit, you should definitely update us and let me know if its helped you or made you feel worse. Whatever happens, best of luck man and I hope it does help in the long run.

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Re: Your Life Here
« Reply #237 on: March 19, 2017, 08:39:22 AM »
Deffenetly, I've only had the medication for 4 days now and it's really too soon to make any assessments. Plus the dose and such is probably going to have to change etc. I'll try to get back to you guys in like a month or two and give an update on that. The current problem is that the medication the doctor chose is widely considered the "safest" option (it is an amfetamine, no real winners in that category but it is supposed to have the least side effects) but it's still under patent. without insurance, the dam things cost 300 USD a month. and WITH insurance they wanted me to pay 75. fortunately, I went and found a discount program directly from the manufacturer that lets me get it for 30, at least until August. after that, I'll have to find something else. It's defiantly a stimulant substantially higher resting heart rate and all that.I have lot more energy than I had previously; actually a plus kinda, I feel like I have "normal" energy levels now. If I take it too late in the day I have to worry about sleep.As my body adjusts the more prominent effects "should" subside. Other than that It's too soon to say anything on the mental front.
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