So... As of Monday I'm officially diagnosed with ADHD combined type, primarily inattentive. It... explains a lot of things. I'm going to be starting medication here in the next week and I'm hoping for an improvement in my general ability to get things done without getting distracted. Honestly, I've suspected it for about a decade but I never wanted it to be true. Heck, it was diagnosed when I was really young but my parents ignored the diagnoses then because of the "overdiagnoses" of the condition in the late 90's. They always told me that I just needed to work harder at being normal but it wasn't something that needed medical aid. I've gotten damn good at ignoring the symptoms and masking them over the years. explaining it away as "lack of will" and "boredom" but the fact that I'm still struggling to pass my third year of college credits and was fighting depression to just to do the dishes sent me off to find help. A little over a year later I finally have a diagnosis (getting into the mental health clinic around here took about 4 months, the wait list was that long, then we were looking at other potential causes first.). I'm not quite sure what to expect, just hopping is progress instead of more stand still. I also find myself wondering where I'd be if I'd sought help or otherwise been diagnosed sooner. Dr. warned me that would be a thing and that dwelling on it wouldn't be good but I can't really help it yet.
Anyway, I'd like to apologize for being a ghost of late. I missing hanging out with all of you guys here.