it's kind of hard to admit this because i've risen above it by this point in my life, but growing up i was raised primarily by a single mom, and so i too would exhibit that same sense of conservative behavior of an emasculated man. even nowadays a bit of my upbringing will trickle out here and there, but things are changing for me. i do have a dad, and by no means has he ever neglected any of his children, but he was an electrician for the navy and he was very respected by the navy. being that he had such a strong responsibility with the navy, he was forced to be overseas pretty much all the time, which left my mom to raise us three kids practically by herself.
i moved out of my mom's house when i was twenty. i'm twenty two now, and i simply can't believe how much my life has changed (my personality and beliefs specifically) now that i'm free of her influence. i would never tell her that, nor would i ever tell her this; i've always believed that the way she raised us (evidence of feministic values) actually hindered my ability to develop into the man i "should" have become sooner. without a father figure to contradict her beliefs, or even to simply provide a second side to her story for me to evaluate; i grew up believing only what my mom had raised me to believe, and so i was basically a man molded by women's logic. (aka - pathetic. again, hard to admit)
i love my mother to death, but i just cannot believe how WRONG she was when it comes to how she raised me to behave as a man. men and women are two different breeds my friends and you're living in the dark if you truly believe we are the same, or even equal. if you're a man raised by a single mom and you don't straighten yourself out somewhere down the road before you reach full maturity, buckle up pal, because your life is gonna be hard (there are exceptions).
now that i'm free of her influence; i'm evolving each day into a more independent man, and it's becoming obvious that i have more of my father's beliefs and values, and i'm ecstatic about it! i'm really coming into my own and i've begun to live for myself, under my own rules and it's shocking how similar it turns out that i am to my father even though he wasn't around to raise me. i'm happy it worked out that way too, because while followed the guidelines of life that my mother set for me i a pushover. girls trampled all over me; nice guys finish last for sure.
nowadays, i get laid when i want. women are at MY feet, and boy it's a wonderful thing! it's not just that though; i've never been more proud to be a man, nor have i ever been happier in my life. that is why i hate that this is an issue. i've never been happier in my life, but some men will never know what i feel, because their mother's influence was so strong that they never got the opportunity to live for themselves, for who they are and what they want.