Well, here I am...
The reason for my absence?
Quote from: Fantasist on May 11, 2012, 06:30:11 pm
So here I am again, letting you gals and guys know that I'm still alive "But wait", you ask. "Where have you been?" Well, long story short, I got a job. And being the introverted recluse I've been the last couple of years, being thrown into an environment where I am forced to interact with people on a daily basis is taking it's toll on me. Good news is, I'm discovering new things about me that I never even considered possible. For instance, it turns I am actually talkative. I'm faring MUCH better in a team (and the general public) than I ever thought I could.
The time before I got a job was one of the toughest times of my life. I was overwhelmed with self-doubt, a sense of worthlessness. The grim clouds of depression were always upon me. But it gave me a chance to introspect. I've realized that I was taking everything way too seriously. I stressed out a lot because I held on to trivial things. I resisted change, and thus a chance to make myself better, to grow as a person. I've even felt it, like I was somehow... "stuck". But when push came to shove, I managed to do just fine. I always avoided challenges, but I out-performed myself when I was forced into one. I experienced first hand how stress can be a good thing should we decide to work with it rather than against it. Life, in all it's glory, has forced me out of a bottleneck, and now I'm finally on the other side... 2012, I believe, doesn't signify the end of the world. It signifies the end of an era. And beyond lie the waves of great change. Even with all the shit that I'm having to deal with, life never looked so promising to me. And you guys are a part of inspiring that feeling.
Since I started to work, I realized that my time on Chaos Project has been very fruitful. I've learned a lot from you guys (a shoutout to you Blizzard, for being my inspiration! ), and I am not just talking about coding. I may have been inactive for a long time, and it'll probably be like this for a while, but I'll always be here in spirit. For me, Chaos Project isn't just an online forum. For me, it's an important part of my life and a part of who I am. So yeah. You guys are awesome!
It seems that Fantasist and I have the near-exact same experience for the past few months...
And:
Money or PassionIn regards to this topic, I'm sorry to disappoint those who voted but I chose the call center job. I am currently working as a Back Office agent for Time Warner Cable and is paying me with P14,000 ($335) a month with P2k ($45) allowance. As of now, I don't have a problem with the job since the money is pretty decent and the people are really nice. There's also a lot of perks like sleeping quarters so I don't have to commute and an in-house gym where I can use the treadmill all day. I'm interacting with people in ways I never thought I could and I am pretty confident that I matured significantly as a person. Although a job in game development would still be welcome, I am currently happy with what I have now.
I was also convinced by everyone's good ol' favorite troll to go vegan and am currently trying my best to remove any kind of animal product from my diet for the past month and a half. As of now, I am still at the lacto-vegetarian stage where I still consume dairy but I'm feeling that I can omit it in a few more weeks. I am ashamed, though, to admit that I ate nothing but meat this past weekend but I am starting anew this week by searching for that veggie shop I found off the internet. However, I am proud to announce that I dropped 4 kilos since I turned vegetarian and, hopefully, continue to lose weight for the next few months.
Well, that's my excuse why I've been inactive. Although, I do promise that I will be more active for the next few days as long as any of the following people are around:
• MarkHest
• Sub
• Zylos
• Ryex
• Blizz
• Tugg
• Spoofus
• *SBR
• FZ (highly unlikely, though)
• other fun people I forgot to mention
See you in the SPAM section!