I have been very busy for about the past 5 weeks straight, due to overlapping deadlines from classes, fellowships, research, soccer, etc. I ended up missing my final soccer game because my the alarm on my phone didn't go off (due to a software bug). When I woke up, I realized how jam-packed my schedule was, and how much I hated it. I don't want to keep spending 80-90 hours a week doing tedious assignments, attending meetings, and accomplishing nothing that bring me satisfaction. I realized that I was stuck back in the same schedule as the last year of undergrad, which I vowed to avoid this year.
I'm not even sure what I want any more. I was hoping that I would find some way to enjoy grad school, and I'll admit that I was before the month of November started, but I really don't want to go through this again twice a year for the next 4-5 years. I doubt that I would find a job much more satisfying, as they are structured in a very similar way. The one big thing I have learned is that in the future, I want to work for myself, either owning my own business, or running my own division or a larger group, etc. Honestly, I would probably have a much better chance of getting employed this way in the gaming industry than in robotics, due to the prevalence and profitability of indie game studios. While I'm not sure what I am going to do in the next year or two, I am now strongly considering a career game development with equal weight to a career in robotics.