Thanks for all the tips, I followed alot of them and it kind of helped. Spend from thursday to Sunday at a friends house, and we spend all the time with making music and various video games, movies, and driving around in his car randomly. Every day there were different people there, so at most times we were 3-7 people, getting wasted, playing mario party, jamming out and cooking questionable foods. And we played through portal 2. So, yes, I'm probably not much better, but it provided distraction, and made me notice I can still have fun which is kind of relieving to know.
So, thanks.
I'd still be happy about other suggestions, too.