Just for a minute I'd like to forget all pretenses and just talk. I've got no where and no one else to do this with. I don't really care if you read this or not, I just feel like typing. So, where to start. Well, I started hanging out with these people that I've sort of known since last year. Really cool people. Down to Earth, funny, laid back, etc. All we really do is hang out, play some video games, skateboard, drive around, go eat, and smoke weed. Yep. Weed. I never really thought I'd be doing something like this, but as it turns out, almost everyone at my school does it. I'm not even exaggerating. Once I started smoking I really found out all who did it. Some people are a lot more open than others but no one really busts anyone out. You might be thinking, "Oh what a shame. He was a victim of peer pressure." That most certainly is not the case. The two guys I first started hanging out with, Josh and Joel, smoked all the time. Before school and after school, everyday. The thing is, they don't pressure anyone. They don't try to push weed onto people or anything like that. I just went up to Josh one day and said, "Hey, can I come over after school today? I feel like smoking." I had smoked weed before but that was usually at parties and I never really inhaled, I just did it to get people to shut up. What made this day different? I don't know. I can't possibly remember. All I know is I ended up with Josh and Joel and we smoked. It was nice. I love the feeling. Its the best feeling I've ever had. Most of all, I love the stress relief feeling. Not worrying about school or my dad. Not really caring about anything. Then we play video games, just listen to music, sit outside, go eat, go skateboarding, etc. Its been life changing. You know those Converse commercials and jeans commercials where it just shows a bunch of young people running around and doing random shit? Like just enjoying life, you know? That's what my life has become most days. My father would never understand or approve for that matter. I understand that its illegal and its not something I should be doing, and there will come a day when I know I need to grow up and stop doing it. When that day comes I will embrace it. For now, I'm just enjoying having fun and living life like I should have been all these years. With my friends. I've always spent all my time in my room. By myself. Just playing video games. All the time, since I was young. I've always lived too far from friends to ever really go anywhere. I was also too fat to do anything athletic like ride a bike or skateboard. Now, I still live far from friends, but I can drive. And when I get to my friends' houses, we ride bikes and skateboard and enjoy the day and the weather. Its a wonderful thing. If you're still reading, I applaud your dedication. I decided to write this because I've been waiting on some school work from a friend but it seems he'll never give it to me. Its a shame really. If I don't get this work I'm probably gonna fail the class. I can probably convince her to give me an extension but I honestly don't care. I have a whole semester open next year anyway if I need to retake any classes. Its a relatively easy class anyway. I don't really know when I stopped giving a damn about school. It just sort of happened. My GPA and standardized test scores are good enough to get me anywhere I want to go. I got a job today. A new fast food place is opening up. I don't know any of the other employees and this is my first job. I'm a little nervous. I need the money though, my parents won't pay for my gas anymore. Swim training starts soon. I gotta get my lazy ass back in shape for summer swim team and then the school team next year. I've been doing nothing too much lately. Well, it seems like I'm starting to ramble, so I'll end it here.