Well after leaving CP after our spat I got bored a lot, but I sated myself with browsing dA every once in a while, dicking around on youtube, hangin' out outside doing fuck all, and playing loads of video games.
And then came the announcement in E3 '09. A new Golden Sun game. I spent HOURS, DAYS looking up fanwork for Golden Sun, since I was a closet fanatic of the game(I've played Lost age upwardsw of fifty times through) for years. On deviantArt I found a good fanfiction writer with works that impressed me.
In one of his comment sections, he noted that he was inspired by a group of friends of his at
fanfiction.net. So I headed over there to find these people. This was a few months after my perma ban. And once there, I registered an account, and spent a while lurking around on their forum. It was kind of slow, but once I was able to post I quickly inserted myself into the zany place.
To say of it, the place was very laidback. there were, all told, only about 5-7 members, and nobody around anymore who had moderating abilities. The admin had neglected to make anyone a mod before up and vanishing on everyone, but people got around well. And then a few months later it turns out the admin hadn't forgotten about everyone after all!
Said admin brought me to another forum, one on invisionfree(which has since moved to zetaboards - it's free and also a fairly good forum host place. If you're looking for a new host, I reccomend giving Zeta a look-see at least. It makes choosing avatars much easier).
So I've spent most of my internet time since on this other place. A small fact many of you are aware of is my intense, violent paranoia. They've alleviated that, to an extent. All in all, I find myself far more comfortable there than here, which is why you so rarely see me.
In comparing the two, the major difference appears to be this: the other forum is a community of people there to have fun with people, based around Golden Sun being the primary similarity for everyone. And this place almost seems like it's supposed to be a workplace. There's no forum in the other place where posts don't count toward your postcount, and as such some people have ridiculous postcounts(I myself have over 16,000).
And the existence of this other forum predates any Chaos Project posts.
So yeah, I spent over a year there, and tried to get Dio to posts there, since I kept in touch with the guy. He gave it a shot and though I'm still a small bit persistent with it, he never sticks around for more than apost here or there when I bother him. He, on the other hand, tried to convince me to convince Blizz to let me back.
Long story short: Eventually I did. When I had a grandiose, HUGELY AMAZING idea for a game. So I got Blizz to let me back (wasn't all that hard - I guess hard feelings fade after a year and a half). And since then I've showed up here every few days / weeks to poke in and say hi, fulfilling requests for my Storyline Service upon occasion, and overall just feeling a bit outcasted.
I'm a bit of an orange, which so far as I can tell is an internet constant for 'not-sexually minded person' meaning despite the fact that I'm otherwise a fully grown person, I don't have any drive to look for a mate. To translate that to other terms, I'm not sexual in any way and in fact am turned off by sexual jokes and the like. Which kind of permeates this place 100%.
So couple that with this place being quite a bit more strict than the forum I usually go to, I never really came to feel again as if I fit in here at CP, so I keep my presence to a minimum. And somewhere along the line I discovered I was never really comfortable here at CP. When things got stressful in reality, I would have to take a break from CP because I didn't trust myself to be calm here.
And in all honesty, things have changed since I left. Most of the people I was friendly with don't show up much anymore, and the rule system and how it's enforced is so different from the way I'm used to. So yeah, that's my story.
Oh, and I'm taking a public speaking class nowadays. It's a pretty interesting experience.