It's my inner thought process, I'd rather say narcissistic. But I don't mind that. You can't love others if you don't love yourself first. But that doesn't make me a narcissist that only loves himself.
@Rose: Exactly what I meant. I have trains of thoughts like these as well. But since they are probably 90% identical to everybody else's, I don't consider them interesting enough to post.
@Niche: If there were no video games in today's world, I would have been a writer.
And here is another one.
Actually when I think of it, it doesn't matter. It was my choice anyway. I was the one in control. I am the one in control. Heh, I didn't see it like that. I make a decision and go through with it without being afraid of consequences. What is the worst thing that could happen anyway? Hm... actually there is a lot that could go wrong. Yes, I can see it now. My whole thought process has changed. It has evolved. When I am to make a decision, I don't stop and dwell on it. I don't run possible negative scenarios and mess myself up. Instead I just do it. It has become almost my default thinking process in situations like these. I am simply going forward and only forward. While everything in my life seems to be a variable, even though currently in a state that I like, this one single thing is a constant. It feels like a straight arrow in a pool of whirlwinds and nothing can disrupt it. Yes. This is it. It's so obvious. Whatever I do, I can only move forward. It feels like I can't make a mistake, like I can't do anything wrong. And if somebody does go wrong, I can learn from it more than from a successful outcome. I am going forward.
Hm... This turned out quite abstract since it has loads of things at the same time.
EDIT: BTW, all of this is in a context. The really abstract parts aren't literal. Like that "power deep within". I say power, but I am talking about confidence. It feels like a force within me that penetrates through any fear, through any insecurity, through anything. Oh, lol, I did it again. It's another chunk of thought.