I'm Leaving - Permanently

[Diokatsu]

I have to ask if maybe there'd be some way for you to stay. I mean, it would be nice to at least have you around. You've been a part of the community, whether you realize it or not. I'm also not gonna go all teary-eyed over you. Sorry, it's just something I'd like to avoid. I never really got to know you, but I at least had fun debating with you. It was nice for a while. But, maybe something did endear you to myself. You were someone who truly themselves. Those laughing stock internet facades that we all try and shelter ourselves behind at some point never manifested themselves in you. What I'm trying to say is that you weren't someone who I couldn't feel right talking with. Hell, you actually feel like a real person. It's not much to say, that you actually were real, but what is more, you weren't out to prove anything. Genuinely existing. That's admirable, winkio.

Like I said, it's not worth my time to cry over you leaving, but it's worth my time to at least give you my final sentiments before you go. You have no reason to think you never fit. I'm sure everyone will agree that you've been more than a member. Thanks for the time winkio and I hope you might find what you truly want, regardless of whether you stay or leave.

[Shadonking]

i didnt think your were an outsider.

anyway, good luck with engineering and we hope you will at least log on every now and then.

[Starrodkirby86]

I'm not crying. Oh god, I'm not crying. Wait, what? Emotions can be such a thing, and I don't want to have them truly involved with my Internet experience. The fun ride has to be fun and only fun!  

So stop acting so damn polite. 

Okay, you darn piece of useless scum.

(And that's seriously sarcasm, serious sarcasm! Haha, oxymoron alert?)

I don't know what else to do here...Just keep saying good-bye with love and care? <3

[winkio]

Star, you always struck me as the sarcastic type.  Fun, but lacking real emotions.

What I meant was that if you have anything to say to me, say it.  Don't just be all polite and say 'I hope you have fun'.  I'm the only one leaving, everyone else should still be here, so its not like you all should be bawling your eyes out.  Just a minor setback.

[Aqua]

But but but...

When I lose a friend, I /do/ bawl my eyes out...
I'll miss you

[Starrodkirby86]

Star, you always struck me as the sarcastic type.  Fun, but lacking real emotions.

Emotions...? What...are...these...emotions you speak of?

Oh crap, I'm following your description, no?

I developed this personality over time, at least on the Internet. No way I can back out of this grave now. You suggesting I'm inhuman or something because I don't have any real emotion? >:I I CAN ACT DRAMATIC TOO! ...Erm...

I'm an extrovert, face it. I'm dead inside with all that stuff, so happiness for me comes from the presence of others. :3 Or something like that...

But but but...

When I lose a friend, I /do/ bawl my eyes out...
I'll miss you

I'm leaving tomorrow. Bye.

When I come back, this place will be like Atlantis.

(Of course that's a joke there)

[Punn]

Wink, you and me and both, I'm far beyond an outcast in this forum, but meh.. gotta remember that their human (I think) and pretty much, they will go after you...

Might as well stay, and follow the rules of Appeasement...

[legacyblade]

Don't Leave winkio! You think you don't fit in? CP would feel weird without you, I think. But I understand, as we grow old, we abandon old hobbies. But I'm sad to see you go.

[Blizzard]

And dammit, I'm sick of everybody, myself included, acting so weird on the internet.  I spent about an hour last night thinking about my situation and writing that post.  I teared up when I wrote it.  I teared up when I read your replies.  I love you guys, and I'll miss you.  So stop acting so damn polite.  Respect gets you nowhere without relationships and empathy.

I'm not being polite, I'm being honest. If that has to include something that are called emotions in this case, then so it shall be.
I'll miss you, too. :cry:

You have to realize that although this decision seems all of the sudden, it has been swirling around in my head for the past month. 
I'm definitely leaving, I've made my choice.

I didn't think it was sudden. People don't make such choices rashly without reason and you had no reason to make it rashly.

I'll definitely come back and visit sometime in the future.

I hope so. And I hope that you come back more often than you are planning right now.

What I meant was that if you have anything to say to me, say it.  Don't just be all polite and say 'I hope you have fun'.  I'm the only one leaving, everyone else should still be here, so its not like you all should be bawling your eyes out.  Just a minor setback.

Define "minor". If somebody removed one of my kidneys, that's a "minor" loss, don't you think? You're a vital part of the forum whether you like it or not. I understand you feeling weird about being an outsider, but that's just the internet. Sometimes I don't feel as if I belonged here myself. But I ignore those feeling as I know that they don't reflect the reality. "I'm a 22 year old chatting with 13-15 year olds." See my point? But I realized that just because I'm the oldest (or one of the much older people here), it doesn't mean I can't connect to the kids.

[Shadonking]

even i feel like an outsider here becuase i havent been here as long as some of the others and also the difference of ages and personalities but i still like it here and there might be a time when i start to feel i fit in. also if you go then there is one less sane person here.

[wolfi--]

Well, I can't say I'll miss you, I don't know many people here but I hope this improves your life.


Best of luck ^_^

[winkio]

Just so that you all don't think I've gone off the deep end with drama...

if you have anything to say to me, say it.

That was not an invitation for drama or emotions, but for honesty.  Damn.  Wasn't referring to everyone either.

I'm the only one leaving, everyone else should still be here, so its not like you all should be bawling your eyes out.  Just a minor setback.

If somebody removed one of my kidneys, that's a "minor" loss

for you.  For me, someone removed everything except one of my kidneys.  hence my attitude.

I apologize to all of you for saying stupid stuff and accidentally starting all this 'drama' in this thread.  All I really wanted was an honest goodbye. 

[Diokatsu]

I spent about an hour last night thinking about my situation and writing that post.  I teared up when I wrote it.  I teared up when I read your replies.  I love you guys, and I'll miss you.

I think that counts as drama... XD

[fugibo]

Seeya wink. Have fun when you move on to the real world, and best luck with engineering

[Calintz]

Again, you take care of yourself Winkio!!

[Tazero]

Check in now and again!
Just fill us in. Like 1 every 3-4 months isn't so bad.
Best of Luck see ya.

[Chaze007]

Not much I can say, I loved your music Winkio I really liked the winter theme. I'll miss your works and company ]:

[Ryex]

Dam why am I always the last one to the party.. or in this case the Good bye thread... any way I'm going to try and stop saying stupid things now.

*NOTE: the following is honesty!*

Winkio, while I'm probably one of the most anti social people here, ( I sit back and watch as others interact, and then.. sometimes jump in and make things strange/weird/whatever_else or... ya... anyway...) I just wanted you to know that I wish you the best no mater what path of life you take, and that you will leave a hole when you leave... goodbye and have fun.

[winkio]

Thanks everyone.  Now, I think I closed up everything and posted everything that's needed: my request things and my projects.  So, I'll just float around until Saturday.

[Fantasist]

Respect gets you nowhere without relationships and empathy.

I know what you mean. After all, this is the internet and life comes first. As much as we are a good community here, we are only as close as we can get on the internet, which is, most of the time, nowhere near personal life.
But as I said, I was inspired by some people here. I was in doubt what field I should take for my bachelor's degree. Blizzard and Zeriab inspired me whether they know it or not. I don't know if it was right to make decisions in my life depending on just what is supposed to be recreation. Imagine how my parents would react that I'm making an important decision b/c of some online acquaintances. Either way, I chose computer science and I'm enjoying it. Being a part of CP affected my life beyond the internet. For that, I'm thankful and I'd never leave here unless I really have to.

So, I'll just float around until Saturday.

That's tomorrow. So one last time; see you around wink