Need some time...

[G_G]

I'm going through an emotional breakdown right now. I haven't been myself lately. My behavior and attitude towards things have drastically changed over the past couple of weeks. Depression is the most obvious change. My grades in school are slipping, I'm slacking off most of my responsibilities, and overall haven't been very friendly towards anyone in my life. I've decided to take a small hiatus from the internet and try to straighten my life out. I'm planning on being gone for a week but depending on how things go, it might even be longer. I just need to figure things out on my end. Anyways, I'll see ya guys around.

[ForeverZer0]

Good luck, GG. I hope you can get your problems worked out and we'll see you when you get back.

[zanaram525]

Good luck with things bro. Hope to see you around on here again sometime when life's better.

[Blizzard]

Good luck in getting rid of your baggage!

[SBR*]

I wish you the best of luck !

[Tazero]

Why do all the cool kids have to go D:

[Blizzard]

Maybe I should start stop taking my pants off in every other thread.

[Ryex]

Good luck G_G!

[Fantasist]

I know what you mean G_G. I wish you best of luck

[G_G]

I really appreciate the support guys. Its been about a week now, while I got one problem dealt with, it only led to more problems. Which is fine because I feel a lot better. As far as I can perceive, I'm still not the same person. I don't feel the same nor do I act the same. I'm to the point to where I can't even tell if I'm depressed or not. But I've got 2 days of school this week, Monday and Tuesday, then I get a total of six days off for Thanksgiving. Thats a big chunk to be away from school, which is the major place thats been causing this emotional stress. So here I am, but due to my grades being all D's right now, I probably won't be so active during the break. Perfect time for makeup work.

I love you guys so much, you guys are more supportive than my real friends and family. They just don't blatantly understand whats going on.

[G_G]

So yay more problems. I don't want to go into detail right now. I'm going insane from my life right now. I'm tired of whats going on and wish I could get away from it. But that's not gonna happen. I realize I need to stop moping about it and get off my lazy ass and just face it all, regardless of the amount of trouble it may cause me. Unfortunately this is going to require me to leave for awhile, longer than intended, in fact I thought most of this crap was cleared up, but it seems to keep coming back over and over.

Since I'll be leaving for an extended amount of time, its obvious I won't be able to work on ARC anymore. I'll have to leave the team, I'm actually surprised with all the time and chances you guys gave me to work on it, but I don't have time nor the energy to work on this. I'm depressed and emotionally unstable. I can't commit the work I have right now because my graphics card is going through some troubles. As soon as I get it up and running, just enough to commit the teensy tiny bit of work I did, I'll do it. I'm sorry I couldn't have worked on it more. If I could just cut a chunk of all the crap I'm going through right now I wouldn't be so damn stressed. But its life, I've gotta face it and its going to create complications. Maybe if I'm lucky enough I may be able to aid you guys in the future but right now I just can't.

Anyways, I'll talk to you guys later, I hope you guys can understand, even partially, as to why I am doing this. I appreciate the community. I dunno when I'll be back exactly, but I'll probably be gone for a couple of months. This will give me time to deal with things.

[winkio]

Sorry, I have no meaningful words for this occasion.

[Fantasist]

G_G...
Just tell yourself that all problems are passing clouds, as are everything in life. Even if you can't deal with your problems head on, tell yourself that time will fix things, at least to some degree. I know what you mean when you said:

I'm tired of whats going on and wish I could get away from it. But that's not gonna happen. I realize I need to stop moping about it and get off my lazy ass and just face it all, regardless of the amount of trouble it may cause me.

Believe me, I know exactly what you mean. It can be hard sometimes to be strong. We all have our weak moments, but you have to believe that in time you will have the strength to deal with your problems. Just hang in there, and everything is going to be alright, tomorrow if not today. The day after if not tomorrow, but things WILL get better.

I wish there was something I could do to help more than just give you cliched advices, but I sat the above from the bottom of my heart. If there is anything I can do, just let me know. Through PM if you don't want to speak in public. Anything at all.

Good luck Ronnie. I will see you in better spirits at a later date whenever that might be

[Ryex]

You know what my creed been for the last few years? "Life: Things happen and time moves on". I understand why you need to leave. In fact I support it. Go sort out your life, there will be a comfy spot here when you get back.

As for ARC, commit the work you did as soon as you can. that work was arguably the most important part and if you don't do it soon I'll have to do it myself any way and then what work you did will be irrelevant .

Good luck!

[Blizzard]

I'm glad you have finally set your priorities straight regardless of everything else. I wish you the best of luck to deal with your tough situation, I know how hard things can sometimes be. You know you can always talk to me on MSN if you need advice or just somebody to listen.

Let me know when you have committed that work so I can remove your SVN access.

[MarkHest]

You've got my support man, I hope things won't be too hard for you. I'm not sure if this is of any comfort but Remember: In time everything will go well as long as you don't give up on life.
I just resently left one of my emotionally unstable moments i had in my life and i thought my life through carefully. I feel a lot better now and i know what i want in life.

What i'm trying to say is, believe things will get better. I know it's hard to think positive in difficult moments like this but it will help you more than you think.

I'll light a spark of hope for you, G_G. I'll believe in you.

[SBR*]

I wish you the best of luck, G_G. Life might be difficult, but always remember that there actually are people that care about you. We'll see you whenever you're out of this situation and life's better .

[Kett Shee]

I hope you find you can figure everything out soon, man. You're an awesome friend and I believe you can overcome any hard times. I enjoy the conversations and the occasional venting/odd joking sessions that we have and expect to have more soon. 

[G_G]

Love you guys so much. Motivation is what I need and you guys are giving me just that. I'll be able to get through just fine it seems.

Quick update: This is more or less for the ARC people. My computer is basically ruined. Right now I'm on my crappy old desktop. The graphics card definitely took place in hardware failure but even after switching to my old graphics card, and after a day or so I can't get my computer to boot up at all. It blue screens immediately. So what I'll do is swap out HDDs tomorrow after school and I should be able to commit my work. Sorry for the long delay, I didn't expect major computer issues like this.

[Blizzard]

Commit your code then, even if isn't fully functional or crashes the editor. Ryex will take care of fixing it.
Let me know when you're done so I can remove your SVN access.